I love a girl for p one and half years..she isa cue one and 4 or 5 years younger hen me..?

when i proposed her she refused me ,,,and old me no o keep conac wih her,,,,bu i am an impossible one and no of ha pe o swich from one girl o anoher.....afer 6 monhs i again saered o keep conac wih her,,,,she also sared o erear me as her friend.........now is his love or friendship??????? i am confused.....